I don’t know what’s going on with me, but just for tonight I’m not feeling like a NoBS woman.
I’m anxious.
Shady Karen is brutal.
I’m fighting so much doubt.
All I keep thinking is who the fuck do I think I am., because everything I want to be seems like I’m a fool to strive for.
I’m done binging for tonight. I feel sick, sad, and hopeless.
Towards the Oak Tree 
Change is really hard and you have proven to yourself you able to do hard things. Give yourself a big hug and keep telling yourself you are fine. Reach out to ask coaches. This is just a bump and does not define you. Remember we do not have to do things perfectly. Take care and you got this. You have
inspired me to keep going.
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I’m so behind in reading your blog, but I save them all and read them when I need your inspiration! This is also that to me- you have the same shitty feelings we all have- who the fuck do we think we are to WANT…all the things?? I think this sometimes, everyone does if they are honest, just today I thought about something I did this week…and thought how can you be so stupid at 66? But, I heard that thought and immediately said to myself, well it’s not exactly stupid but maybe try something esle next time- like using a dragon to breathe fire on the dumbass people who are mean!! So much better, right?! I love that we ARE NoBS women during our darkest times, and darkest feelings, and overeatings- because we pivot (sooner than we used to) and make our next best decision! I see you doing this all the time and your workouts make me feel like I’m capable of more strength too- I’m sorry I hadn’t read this earlier so I could remind you that you are my heroine!!
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